Dream chaser

Just before midnight on New Year’s Eve 2013, I sat cross-legged on my bed as I slipped one piece of paper after another into an old coffee jar.

I ceremoniously tied a delicate blue ribbon around it and hid it away in a drawer in my bedside table.

In the jar were my intentions for the coming year. At the time, there was a buzz around setting intentions, rather than new year’s resolutions.

Somehow it’s meant to make you more serious about achieving your dreams. You write it down and direct your thoughts toward an outcome.

At the end of 2014, I opened the jar and read through the intentions I’d placed in it a year earlier. I’d fulfilled most of them, but two of them closest to my heart, I had done nothing about.

If you’re a long time reader of this blog, you will know that I’ve previously written about my dreams. The dreams that I hold close to my heart and which dance in my head well into the night.

What I haven’t done, is share with you what my dreams actually are. I’m not sure why. They seem so personal to me. Perhaps it’s because if I say them out loud, write them down, or tell the world, it makes them real. It makes me accountable, vulnerable and more scared of failure than ever.

The two intentions that I slipped into the jar at the end of 2013 and which I hadn’t seen through a year later, were to write a children’s picture book and to become a freelance writer.

So, at the end of 2014, I placed those intentions back into the jar determined to see them through in 2015.

In the first few weeks of this year, I enrolled in a Children’s Picture Book Writing class with the Australian Writers’ Centre. I threw myself into the course, battled with doubts of not being good enough, and struggled with the need to be creative under pressure for my assessments.

Once the course was done, I had the makings of a book that my tutor said with a little re-work could turn into something publishers may be interested in.

I put my book aside for a few weeks with the intention to go back to it with fresh eyes. Before I knew it, the year was in full swing and I became caught up in life.

As the months flew past, I became more and more unhappy that I wasn’t chasing my dreams and that they sat crumpled up in a notebook in the laundry cupboard.

Worse still, negativity and self-doubt overcame me and I questioned my ability as a writer. I told myself that just because I WANT to write a children’s book and just because I WANT to be a freelance writer doesn’t mean that I have the talent or skills to make it happen, so I might as well quit while I’m ahead – or something.

It wasn’t until reading Kelly Exeter’s Your Best Year Yet, that I was able to shake myself out of this downward spiral and realise that I do have what it takes to see my intentions through or to at least try to see them through.

If I want these things badly enough, then I need to shift my thinking and find the time. A good friend told me recently that I’m not getting any younger. It’s time I stopped talking about these dreams and actually do something about them.

So … I have decided to set my alarm that little bit earlier one morning a week to work on my children’s writing. As for my freelance writing, I have big plans for that too.

Carolyn from Freelance Writers Cartel has invited me to jump on board with her new eight week Career Kickstarter Course. The course will equip me with everything I need to know to take my writing to the next level from writing great pitches to turning myself into a business.

Carolyn and I met through the blogging scene a couple of years ago and we catch up every now and then over nachos.

She is ridiculously intelligent, uber cool and best of all generous with her knowledge. So generous, in fact, she’s offering Mummy, Wife, Me readers 20 % off her course. If you want to join me in the course from 7 September, key in the code FWC20 at checkout.

Will I become a professional writer after all of this? I’m not sure, but at least I can tell myself I’ve given it a red hot go rather than staring at intentions in a jar.

Are you afraid to chase your dreams? What’s holding your back? Are you living your dream?

28 comments on Dream chaser

  1. Gail Mcvean
    September 3, 2015 at 8:00 am (2 years ago)

    Renee,

    You only have one life, you must chase your dreams in order to fulfill it. And if at first you
    Don’t succeed, try try try again. This is what makes you who you are. Gail

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    • Mummy, Wife, Me
      September 6, 2015 at 8:13 pm (2 years ago)

      Lovely words, Gail. Thanks so much for reading and for your support xo

      Reply
  2. Nicole@ The Builders Wife
    September 3, 2015 at 8:14 am (2 years ago)

    Dreams are so important, only one way to be living them, and that’s to get out and give it a go! Yay for you xxx

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  3. JodiGibson (@JFGibsonWriter)
    September 3, 2015 at 8:43 am (2 years ago)

    This post has brought a huge smile to my face, I’m so happy for you Renee. And have absolutely no doubts you will realise your dreams and so much more. Go get ’em girl!! xxxx

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    • Mummy, Wife, Me
      September 6, 2015 at 8:14 pm (2 years ago)

      Thanks Jodi! I really appreciate your support xo

      Reply
  4. Vicki @ Knocked Up and Abroad
    September 3, 2015 at 12:15 pm (2 years ago)

    I am so pleased you’ve gotten your head space back into motivation land. Both of these intentions are so achievable for you and doing the course is a great idea to not only hone skills but also to learn how to back yourself. You’ve so good this! I’m so pleased you’re going down this track πŸ™‚ xx

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    • Mummy, Wife, Me
      September 6, 2015 at 8:16 pm (2 years ago)

      Thanks so much for your support, Vicki! I really appreciate it xo

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  5. Andrea Phillips
    September 3, 2015 at 2:36 pm (2 years ago)

    Life is too short, you need to do this or you’ll regret it forever!
    And I can’t wait to read my children a book that you wrote! XX

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    • Mummy, Wife, Me
      September 6, 2015 at 8:17 pm (2 years ago)

      Eek! Thanks darling for your support as always xo

      Reply
  6. Bec @ The Plumbette
    September 3, 2015 at 4:29 pm (2 years ago)

    I’m wondering who this friend was that gave you such good advice. πŸ˜‰ in behind you all the way as you chase your dreams. You only have to read your blog to see you’re a great writer. I’d love to do the writing course but I have a lot on my plate at present! XxlAh. S

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    • Bec @ The Plumbette
      September 3, 2015 at 4:34 pm (2 years ago)

      Sorry about the extra letters. Typing via my iPhone and Phoebe knocked some letters on the end! X

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  7. Emma @ Life, kids and a glass of red
    September 3, 2015 at 6:59 pm (2 years ago)

    Good on you for not giving up! Life is too short to not follow dreams and regret not trying. I’m sure it will all turn out beautifully!

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  8. Peachy Keen Mumma
    September 3, 2015 at 8:24 pm (2 years ago)

    That’s really cool that you stick dreams in a jar. I had one for this year too. But it’s slowly fallen on the back burner. A course I want to do that’s only avbl in NZ. Well, fair enough when I put it like that. YIKES!
    I keep thinking of how I could make it a reality.
    Kudos to you for being a dream chaser and achiever!

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    • mummywifeme
      mummywifeme
      September 6, 2015 at 8:43 pm (2 years ago)

      Thanks Jess! It’s so easy for things to fall on the backburner. I hope you can follow your dreams too.

      Reply
  9. Dannielle
    September 3, 2015 at 9:17 pm (2 years ago)

    Go grab those dreams kid!
    I think you’ve got yourself well and truly focused and everything great is all about to happen xx

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    • Mummy, Wife, Me
      September 6, 2015 at 8:19 pm (2 years ago)

      I hope so, Dannielle. Thank you x

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  10. Kathy
    September 6, 2015 at 11:56 am (2 years ago)

    Good on you Renee – I reckon you’d write a delightful children’s book. And you have to remember that you write and do communications professionally now – it is just a step to making that work on a freelance basis. X

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    • Mummy, Wife, Me
      September 6, 2015 at 8:20 pm (2 years ago)

      Thanks Kathy. Sometimes I forget that πŸ™‚ xo

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  11. Rachel @ The Mama Files
    September 8, 2015 at 9:37 pm (2 years ago)

    Sometimes carving out that time to do what you want to do, what you feel DRIVEN to do, is so hard – especially when you’re being pulled in all directions. I definitely feel that all the time (I am always torn between my blogs, my freelancing, my family!) But I hope you do it; I’d love to see your kid’s book on the shelves at my local bookstore someday πŸ™‚ And good luck with the freelance writing! xo

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  12. Tash @ Gift Grapevine
    September 9, 2015 at 12:54 am (2 years ago)

    So happy for you Renee that you haven’t given up and are chasing those dreams. I can’t wait to see your children’s picture book on the shelves at bookstores. When I do, I promise to play merchandiser and sneakily move it in front of all the other books so everyone can see πŸ™‚

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  13. Leanne @ Deep Fried Fruit
    September 9, 2015 at 5:48 am (2 years ago)

    Yay for you!!!!
    So happy for you.
    People wonder why I set my alarm for 5.00am.
    It’s to do exactly what you’re doing. To follow my dreams …
    At 5.00am I am no long dream chasing …. I’m dream achieving.

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  14. Heart
    September 12, 2015 at 6:55 am (2 years ago)

    Well done, Renee! It is in the DOING, not just in the thinking, that we achieve our dreams. If don’t DO something about it, we would never see them FULFILLED.

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