This is 39

I turned 39 today.

39.

Oh. My. God.

Thirty-nine sounds like a blah number, but if you ask me there’s something significant about numbers ending in nine.

Nine, 19 and 29 have been pivotal years of my life. I’ve felt as though I was on the cusp of something new and exciting at those ages, reflective of the decade soon to pass and eager to welcome a new decade.

Despite the excitement, I must admit that with turning 39 there comes a feeling of … I want to say terror, but perhaps that’s too strong a word. Let’s just say that with turning 39 there comes a feeling of apprehension.

Whenever I tell someone I’m 39, I grit my teeth and raise my brows as if to say, ‘Yeeeep, 39. I don’t know how the hell that happened either. One minute I’m rocking out barefoot and merry at a Thirsty Merc concert for my 30th birthday, and the next minute I’m debating whether to even celebrate my birthday because kids, because old, because tired.’

Side note: I know I’m not quite there yet, but I don’t care how many times people say 40 is the new 30. It’s just not, and we all know it. 40 is 40.

As I enter the final year of my thirties, hurtling at pace toward my forties, I can’t help but reflect on where I am in life and what I want for me and my family moving forward.

I stumbled upon a quote from Brene Brown last week, which has stuck with me.

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Even though I’m not middle aged, Brene served as a wakeup call of sorts for me and stirred up thoughts that have been swirling around in my mind for some time. A feeling of now or never to start making my dreams come true, to lose that weight, to get fit, see the world, live life, and cherish every second I have with the people special to me.

I’m conscious that I’m not getting any younger. I see and hear people around me and those close to me getting sick, battling with cancer, and serious health issues. People my age.

At this age, we really need to start taking care of ourselves, if we haven’t already. We need to watch those stress levels, check our skin, our boobs, have regular pap smears and, in my case, come to terms with the fact that I’m never going to convince my family to become vegetarian and I need to start eating something a little healthier than Weet-bix for dinner.

I have countless friends my age training for marathons and triathlons. It’s like we’ve gotten to this point in our lives where we think if we don’t do it now, we never will. Running and being uber healthy is the new black and everyone is jumping on board. Hell, I even have a much loved and crazy (I say that very affectionately) friend who is climbing whopping big snowy mountains and riding a bike halfway across the desert.

As we enter our late thirties, we very much enter a stage where we realise we’re still young and healthy enough to do the things we’ve always wanted to, to take risks, and bloody well get out there and live life. It’s time to quit worrying about what other people think. It’s time to embrace who you are and make certain you do not live your life in regret.

Each year I feel a little closer to knowing who I am and what I want from life and, of course that morphs and changes over the years.

I have grown significantly as a person in my thirties. Life with little people will do that to you. You love deeper, you discover patience you never knew you had, you learn to survive on a few hours’ sleep and you have less money despite working harder than you have before.

My thirties were full of life and all that it brings – love, marriage, death, infertility, friendship loss and gain, the birth of two beautiful children, sleepless nights, laughter, tears, and life changing health issues.

I know the forties will be no different with regards to highs and lows, joys and challenges, but I’m ready to tackle them head on and make it known to the universe I’m not f-ing around.

I will celebrate my final year of my 30s as this life-changing decade draws to a close and prepare myself for a new decade full of life and all that it has to offer.

Ps. It seems I’m in good company. Some of my famous friends who are turning 39 this year are: Michael Fassbender, Sarah-Michelle Gellar, Chris Martin and Jessica Chastain.

Do you become reflective on your birthday? What is your favourite way to celebrate your birthday?

38 comments on This is 39

  1. Bec Senyard
    May 19, 2016 at 6:44 am (1 year ago)

    You have so much more life in you to live lovely. You don’t look your age. I hope you have the happiest of Birthdays today and I hope that your 39th year will follow as previous years that have ended in ‘9’. I hope it’s an amazing year and that it sets you up for amazing things in your 40’s. xx

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  2. Robyna
    May 19, 2016 at 6:48 am (1 year ago)

    I must admit, I thought you were closer to 34 🙂 Have a beautiful birthday. It’s all just a number but the reflections it brings are important.

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    • mummywifeme
      mummywifeme
      June 2, 2016 at 4:23 pm (12 months ago)

      Too kind, Robyna 🙂

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  3. Zanni Hacska
    May 19, 2016 at 6:56 am (1 year ago)

    Happy birthday beautiful lady! You are ageing gracefully! I am sure you will make the most of this year, and every year after. xxx

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  4. Sammie @ The Annoyed Thyroid
    May 19, 2016 at 7:00 am (1 year ago)

    You might be turning 39 but you still look 29! I love that Brene Brown quote and hope that this last year with a 3 in front of it is your best year yet!

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  5. Caitlin
    May 19, 2016 at 7:11 am (1 year ago)

    Happy Birthday! Love your attitude as you hit 39. I disliked how everything about being 39 made you think about 40! However, you are still in your 30’s, so enjoy concluding that decade with all the exuberance and fun it deserves! Like me, I see the 30’s has been decade you became a mother and therefore it has changed you into a better person forever. A person who now know self sacrifice, balance and never ending love where you live outside of your own body as someone else’s heart beat strangely becomes your own. (Oh and a little sidenote from the other side, 40’s not so bad either!) Happy Birthday!

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    • mummywifeme
      mummywifeme
      June 2, 2016 at 4:25 pm (12 months ago)

      Aww thanks Caitlin. So beautifully said x

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  6. Shannon@ my2morrows
    May 19, 2016 at 8:01 am (1 year ago)

    Happy birthday lovely. I’m just a few months behind you and feel exactly the same way. 39 you’re doing just fine!! Xx

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    • mummywifeme
      mummywifeme
      June 2, 2016 at 4:26 pm (12 months ago)

      Aww thanks so much, Kathy! I love Paul Kelly.

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  7. Simone
    May 19, 2016 at 11:20 am (1 year ago)

    Happy Birthday my dear friend! I definitely get relfective on birthdays, and I will admot that 40 hurtling closer freaks me out way more than turning 30 ever did. You have so much to be proud of doing in your 30s though and I don’t think much will change when you in the next decade! xo

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    • mummywifeme
      mummywifeme
      June 2, 2016 at 4:26 pm (12 months ago)

      Thanks sweetheart. As do you xx

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  8. Josefa
    May 19, 2016 at 11:45 am (1 year ago)

    Happiest of happy birthdays! Birthdays are perfect timing to reflect on life, except I made sure this birthday it was the one thing I did not do, for many reasons I guess. I loved that Bene Brown quote too when I saw it! Great minds 😉 Oh by the way, if I wasn’t 35, I’d be 39 this year too 😉

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    • mummywifeme
      mummywifeme
      June 2, 2016 at 4:27 pm (12 months ago)

      Hahahaha! Love it 🙂

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  9. EssentiallyJess
    May 19, 2016 at 2:27 pm (1 year ago)

    You look great for 38 Renee! If there was a model for saying ‘hey don’t freak out about being 39,’ it would be your face on it.
    With Sarah Michelle Geller’s. Cause I just love her. And you too would look cute on a poster together.
    Happy birthday my friend!

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    • mummywifeme
      mummywifeme
      June 2, 2016 at 4:28 pm (12 months ago)

      I think we would be the best of friends for sure!!! 🙂

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  10. Emily @ Have A Laugh On Me
    May 19, 2016 at 2:46 pm (1 year ago)

    Wishing you a fabulous birthday Ren, I love your words of wisdom. Yes now is the time we have to smarten our acts up as we head into the wiser years of our lives. I have to say that age doesn’t worry me, but maybe that will change when I’m 40?

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    • mummywifeme
      mummywifeme
      June 2, 2016 at 4:28 pm (12 months ago)

      Maybe. Somehow I think you will continue to be confident regardless of your age and not let it worry you 🙂 x

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  11. Adam Edwardson
    May 19, 2016 at 7:29 pm (1 year ago)

    Great post Ren. X

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  12. Sonia Life Love HIccups
    May 19, 2016 at 9:24 pm (1 year ago)

    A HUGE happy birthday to you hun. Yep enjoy the 30s whilst they last. I’m not going to lie – the 40s are pretty awesome… but I suffer from serious 30s envy xx

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    • mummywifeme
      mummywifeme
      June 2, 2016 at 4:29 pm (12 months ago)

      Lol. I’m sure they are awesome. It’s all relative 🙂 xx

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  13. Sam Stone
    May 19, 2016 at 9:38 pm (1 year ago)

    Happy birthday!
    I turn 40 this year and I’m pretty sure I’m having a mid life crisis.

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    • mummywifeme
      mummywifeme
      June 2, 2016 at 4:30 pm (12 months ago)

      Lol!!!! Join the club 🙂

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  14. Druimé
    May 20, 2016 at 1:04 am (1 year ago)

    Needed to read this. I’m turning 39 very soon too. Beautiful words. Go get em. X

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    • mummywifeme
      mummywifeme
      June 2, 2016 at 4:30 pm (12 months ago)

      Ooh how exciting!!! Same goes for you, lovely x

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  15. kit@lifethroughthehaze
    May 20, 2016 at 2:07 pm (1 year ago)

    Happiest of birthdays for yesterday! I am certain your family made sure you had a beautiful day! For me it isn’t the birthday’s with 9’s in them but birthday’s with 5 in them I am not sure what I don’t like about 25, 35, 45 (yes truly I am THAT old!) I think it is because I know it means it is the slippery side of the slippery dip to the next HIGHER number instead of the ladder up if that makes sense.

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    • mummywifeme
      mummywifeme
      June 2, 2016 at 4:31 pm (12 months ago)

      Yes, I definitely feel reflective when I turn an age ending in five too. Funny that, isn’t it?!

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  16. Lucy @ Bake Play Smile
    May 23, 2016 at 8:54 am (1 year ago)

    Happy birthday gorgeous!!! Haha yes you’re definitely in good company!! 39 is going to be an amazing year for you!!

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  17. Tonia Zemek
    May 24, 2016 at 8:56 pm (1 year ago)

    A belated happy birthday! I love that quote, by the way! I’d never heard that one before. I know exactly what you mean about time ticking on and how serious 40 can feel. Enjoy this 39th year. I hope it’s a happy, healthy, fun and fulfilling 12months. xx (P.S I read an article recently about all these cool people who started new careers in their 80s! … age is just a number, sista …)

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    • mummywifeme
      mummywifeme
      June 2, 2016 at 4:32 pm (12 months ago)

      Wow!!! That sounds like an awesome article. I’ll have to google it.

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  18. Lisa
    May 24, 2016 at 11:48 pm (1 year ago)

    A great quote Renee. Hope you had a fab birthday. You don’t look 39!

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