I don’t know whether I was delirious from the ridiculous amount of sugar I had consumed or whether it was frostbite setting in, but as soon as she started speaking I fell into a trance.
The speaker was Ellie Beck and I was at the Creative Business Women’s High Tea.
Ellie is a creative maker living in the rainforest of Northern New South Wales with her husband and family. She and her husband run a design studio where they handcraft jewellery out of recycled skateboards. Ellie also has a personal blog, PetalPlum.
Ellie mesmerised me as she chatted to us about the importance of being true to yourself in your creative endeavours and how we will truly find joy if we create for ourselves first and foremost.
As Ellie opened her heart to us, she encouraged us to do the same in our own ventures whether it be blogging, running a business, or just life in general.
Ellie encouraged us to find our voice, to nurture it, and to stay strong to it.
Her words didn’t just speak to me, they sang to me. They lifted me up in a way I was crying out for. They embraced me, patted me on the back and gave me a nudge. Her words were what I needed to hear at this point of my blogging career.
Chantelle of Fat Mum Slim had touched on this very topic earlier in the day and Ellie’s speech served to drive the point home – at least for me anyway. Chantelle spoke of the importance of showing people who you are, sharing your life and getting people to fall in love with you.
There is no doubt I am honest and open on this blog and I do all I can to show my authentic self. People I know in real life tell me this blog is just so me, which is the biggest compliment I could ever get because I want nothing more than it to be a true reflection of myself.
In saying that, I undergo an internal battle more often than not. Words attack me in my head – Why are you doing this? Why would people be interested in you? You’re boring, stupid. Why are you even wasting your time?
You may notice while I am active on this blog, I don’t spend as much time on social media. I often don’t know what to say. I have started and deleted more Facebook status updates than I’d like to admit.
The doubt in myself is there bubbling under the surface – always – and can be all consuming at times. Sharing yourself with the world is definitely scary and it does open you up to criticism.
These thoughts are holding me back, potentially holding me back from making a success with this blog.
Ellie and Chantelle have given me the encouragement I needed to put myself out there even more. I am no longer going to start writing and then deleting anymore status updates. If people don’t like what I have to say, if I bore them, fine – they can unfollow me.
I want to make a go of things with this blog and so I am taking on Ellie and Chantelle’s advice.
You may see me being a little more active on social media, so please come along and say hi.
In the words of Kevin Costner – build it and they will come – or was that the old dude? Whoops, I’ve just been told it’s the baseball player. Anyway, I’m going to build it guys, so please come and visit xo
Linking up today with the effervescent EssentiallyJess for IBOT and the lovely ladies at Weekend Rewind 🙂