The premature menopause mind fuck

I’d like to preface this post with an apology to my mother and mother-in-law for using the f-word, but honestly it seems like the most appropriate title for this post. Premature menopause is a complete and utter head wrecker.

When I was first diagnosed with premature menopause two years ago, I was rocked to the core. As a 38-year-old, menopause wasn’t on my radar. I’m not going to lie, I knew something was up with my body. I just didn’t realise – or want to admit – what it was.

When my specialist told me my ovaries had shut up shop and I should go on HRT medication, I struggled to come to terms with it.

Dave was pretty sure he didn’t want any more kids, but there was part of me that always thought I’d have a third. I felt robbed of the choice to have more kids. The ability to have another child was completely taken out of my hands. That’s it. No more babies for you! And don’t even get me started on feeling like an old woman before my time. I felt like an ancient, shriveled up, barren old biddy.

But what’s the point crying over spilt milk, am I right? I shed some tears, ate a truckload of Milo and moved on. I have two beautiful daughters and an amazing husband. Our family is complete. Happy days.

It took me a while to find the right HRT medication at first, (I suffer from migraines with auras which makes me a stroke risk on certain medication), but after three or four trials I found something that suited me to a tee. My symptoms disappeared and for the first time in ages, I felt like myself.

Premature menopause became a non-issue for me. I took my medication, didn’t have to deal with periods and didn’t have to use contraception. Life was good.

Last month though the suppliers of my HRT medication rudely burst my happy bubble. My medication was out of stock and wouldn’t be available for two months. Coinciding with this, I experienced symptoms I hadn’t had for years – tender breasts, ovulation cramps and bleeding. What the?

I called my doctor in a panic. Had I been misdiagnosed? What the hell was going on? Could I possibly have another child? But, I don’t want another child now. Two years have passed. I’m 40 now. I’ve come to terms with menopause. I like menopause. Don’t bring my periods back. Arrrrghhhhh!!!

My specialist is a very rational woman thankfully and basically told me to calm the farm.

My ‘period’ and ovulation symptoms, could in fact have been me ovulating. This can randomly happen to menopausal woman. However, my specialist believes in my case it was lack of progesterone and the change in medication that caused it.

So, next week we’re trying something new. I’m having a Mirena inserted. This will give me the right level of hormones I need, won’t cause me to have a stroke (bonus) and will provide contraception at the same time just in case my body decides it wants to randomly ovulate.

In my usual style after my appointment yesterday, I went home and ate a fistful of chocolate brownies, while I mulled over the information I’d just taken in.

While premature menopause is a complete head wrecker, I’m determined to not get my knickers in a knot over it. I just have to roll with it and take my specialist’s advice.

Fingers crossed the Mirena will agree with me and not send me full blown crazy.

Have you used a Mirena before? How did it work for you?

Linking up with Kylie for IBOT.

22 comments on The premature menopause mind fuck

  1. Ingrid
    October 10, 2017 at 7:00 am (1 week ago)

    I have a Mirena due to different reasons. It has helped but hasn’t been the full solution my doctor and I were hoping for.

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    • mummywifeme
      mummywifeme
      October 10, 2017 at 8:51 pm (1 week ago)

      Oh I’m sorry to hear that, Ingrid. I hope they can find a new and better solution for you very soon.

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  2. Em @ Have A Laugh On Me
    October 10, 2017 at 7:48 am (1 week ago)

    GAH, you are so patient, I’m not sure my family would still have me if I had been going through such a thing. Thinking of you xx

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  3. Nicole @ The Builder's Wife
    October 10, 2017 at 8:14 am (1 week ago)

    Wow Renee, that sounds really tough. I hope you have success with the Mirena. Those migraines are horrible, while I don’t suffer from them, I have been involved with many patients that do, absolutely debilitating. I’m sorry you suffer with them x

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    • mummywifeme
      mummywifeme
      October 10, 2017 at 8:54 pm (1 week ago)

      Thanks Nicole. Just one of those things unfortunately xx

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  4. Sammie @ The Annoyed Thyroid
    October 10, 2017 at 8:17 am (1 week ago)

    Oh you poor love! I haven’t got a Mirena but I’ve got the implanon, (kind of like an in the arm version) and I love it. I hope it ticks all the boxes for you and that you can get back to pre menopausing like a boss! PS Isn’t it funny how brownies make everything better?!

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    • mummywifeme
      mummywifeme
      October 10, 2017 at 8:54 pm (1 week ago)

      Oh they definitely do!! Lucky I had some in the cupboard. Thanks lovely x

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  5. Drumé
    October 10, 2017 at 8:31 am (1 week ago)

    Oh my goodness what a journey you have been on. I hope you can return to your ignorant bliss soon. I don’t have mirena because any extra hormones in my body make me go rather loopy and I am already quite loopers. X

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    • mummywifeme
      mummywifeme
      October 10, 2017 at 8:54 pm (1 week ago)

      Hahaha me too. Eeek! x

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  6. Vanessa
    October 10, 2017 at 2:40 pm (1 week ago)

    Oh good luck, I have never had a Mirena. It sucks that sometimes we just have to try things to see if they work. Don’t you wish a magical wand would let us know beforehand sometimes?

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    • mummywifeme
      mummywifeme
      October 10, 2017 at 8:55 pm (1 week ago)

      Yes, I would love a magical wand or a crystal ball. Trial and error is not fun at all.

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  7. Deb
    October 10, 2017 at 5:26 pm (1 week ago)

    I have had the Mirena for 9 years (am 44 yrs old). You have it replaced every 5 years and I love it. I know some people didn’t like it but everyone is different and you won’t know until you try it, definitely worth a shot. Best of luck x

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    • mummywifeme
      mummywifeme
      October 10, 2017 at 8:55 pm (1 week ago)

      Deb, thank you so much for letting me know this. I have been getting worried about it. You’ve put my mind at ease. Thank you@ x

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      • Deb
        October 11, 2017 at 6:24 am (7 days ago)

        You’re welcome 🙂 best thing I ever did – mood levels constant – no bleeding (I’m anemic so that’s a blessing) – can’t feel it – breasts get a little sore once in a blue moon but no biggy really. Slightly uncomfortable being put in ( but relatively quick) so plan to have a quiet afternoon if you can. It’s worth it for a 5 yr set and forget device. I am of a similar build to you as well. Keep us posted xx

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  8. Bron @fourtoadore
    October 10, 2017 at 8:37 pm (1 week ago)

    What a runaround for you Renee! I hope the Mirena solves some problems for you, I’m looking forward to an update as I’m thinking of getting one.

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    • mummywifeme
      mummywifeme
      October 10, 2017 at 8:56 pm (1 week ago)

      I will keep you posted 🙂

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  9. Erika @ Ever-changing Life of a Mum
    October 11, 2017 at 9:33 am (7 days ago)

    Oh Renee what a difficult time for you, particularly after being on medication that has worked so well. I hope the Mirena agrees with you and is the solution you have been looking for. Take care x

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  10. Denyse
    October 11, 2017 at 10:06 am (6 days ago)

    Oh gosh, isnt it the pits when regular medication cant be found? I feel for you. It has been a very tough thing to take in, this premature menopause, as you said you were see-sawing about another child and then..boom! No choice. This is hard. I hope that the new thing works for you and that if it does not, then the meds you were on are available. So much to deal with isn’t there and get on with life as YOU! Much love, D xx

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  11. Kylie Purtell
    October 11, 2017 at 11:27 am (6 days ago)

    Argh, that really sucks, but I’m glad you and you’re doctor have worked out a plan. Crossing my fingers that it works exactly as it should and makes things a little easier xx

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  12. Kathy
    October 12, 2017 at 8:08 am (6 days ago)

    Thinking of you and hoping it works out really well for you. X

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  13. Eva @ The Multitasking Woman
    October 12, 2017 at 11:35 am (5 days ago)

    Holy moly! That sounds horrible, you poor thing. That would make it so hard to focus on your family, work etc. I really hope the Mirena works for you and eases some of the discomfort. I had the Mirena, I can’t recall any problems I had, I had it removed when we were ready to try for another baby. Good luck. x

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