I’d like to preface this post with an apology to my mother and mother-in-law for using the f-word, but honestly it seems like the most appropriate title for this post. Premature menopause is a complete and utter head wrecker.
When I was first diagnosed with premature menopause two years ago, I was rocked to the core. As a 38-year-old, menopause wasn’t on my radar. I’m not going to lie, I knew something was up with my body. I just didn’t realise – or want to admit – what it was.
When my specialist told me my ovaries had shut up shop and I should go on HRT medication, I struggled to come to terms with it.
Dave was pretty sure he didn’t want any more kids, but there was part of me that always thought I’d have a third. I felt robbed of the choice to have more kids. The ability to have another child was completely taken out of my hands. That’s it. No more babies for you! And don’t even get me started on feeling like an old woman before my time. I felt like an ancient, shriveled up, barren old biddy.
But what’s the point crying over spilt milk, am I right? I shed some tears, ate a truckload of Milo and moved on. I have two beautiful daughters and an amazing husband. Our family is complete. Happy days.
It took me a while to find the right HRT medication at first, (I suffer from migraines with auras which makes me a stroke risk on certain medication), but after three or four trials I found something that suited me to a tee. My symptoms disappeared and for the first time in ages, I felt like myself.
Premature menopause became a non-issue for me. I took my medication, didn’t have to deal with periods and didn’t have to use contraception. Life was good.
Last month though the suppliers of my HRT medication rudely burst my happy bubble. My medication was out of stock and wouldn’t be available for two months. Coinciding with this, I experienced symptoms I hadn’t had for years – tender breasts, ovulation cramps and bleeding. What the?
I called my doctor in a panic. Had I been misdiagnosed? What the hell was going on? Could I possibly have another child? But, I don’t want another child now. Two years have passed. I’m 40 now. I’ve come to terms with menopause. I like menopause. Don’t bring my periods back. Arrrrghhhhh!!!
My specialist is a very rational woman thankfully and basically told me to calm the farm.
My ‘period’ and ovulation symptoms, could in fact have been me ovulating. This can randomly happen to menopausal woman. However, my specialist believes in my case it was lack of progesterone and the change in medication that caused it.
So, next week we’re trying something new. I’m having a Mirena inserted. This will give me the right level of hormones I need, won’t cause me to have a stroke (bonus) and will provide contraception at the same time just in case my body decides it wants to randomly ovulate.
In my usual style after my appointment yesterday, I went home and ate a fistful of chocolate brownies, while I mulled over the information I’d just taken in.
While premature menopause is a complete head wrecker, I’m determined to not get my knickers in a knot over it. I just have to roll with it and take my specialist’s advice.
Fingers crossed the Mirena will agree with me and not send me full blown crazy.
Have you used a Mirena before? How did it work for you?
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