‘No really happy’, I murmured contentedly as I rolled over and nestled my head into my pillow.
I’m in love, you see.
In love with Dave, yes. In love with my children, of course. But there is another who has flipped my life upside down, filled my stomach with butterflies and turned me into an excitable, giggly little girl.
It’s our first month anniversary today. We are well and truly in the honeymoon phase. We are all over each other. We simply cannot get enough of each other. If we were out in public together people would be like, ‘Puh-lease get a room!’
I want to live and breathe my blog. My mind is constantly on it. Even when I’m doing the groceries or hanging out the washing I’m thinking potential new posts and Facebook status updates. Cupid has hit me hard this time, friends.
It’s crazy, but I can’t ever recall being so excited or passionate about a hobby before (excluding travel, but that’s a given). I feel like I’ve finally found my calling – what I’ve meant to be doing all along. My internal fires have been lit and they are roaring.
One month ago, I launched Mummy, Wife, Me and exposed myself to my friends, family and the world. It was such a terrifying thing for me to do. I still have moments where I can’t believe I’m sharing my innermost thoughts with strangers. I worry if people don’t like what I write, or think it is stupid. I push those feelings deep back inside though, because the benefits this blog gives me totally outweigh any negatives.
When I launched Mummy, Wife, Me, I wrote in A gift for me and the About section how I felt like I had lost sight of myself in the past few years. I felt worn out, tired and unhappy even though I had everything I could ever wish for in my beautiful family. I wanted and needed something just for me that would make me feel alive again. I wanted and needed to make sense of how I was changing as a person, who I had left behind and who I was becoming.
In just one month, I feel like I’ve learned more about myself than I have in the last few years. I feel excited about this journey I’ve embarked on. I feel alive again and desperately want this honeymoon phase to last forever.
Thank you all so much for reading. I hope you all enjoy this blog as much as I do. Please don’t be afraid to comment or make suggestions on what you’d like to read on here.